All I did was to skip one QT session and I'm already feeling like hell. Time passes oddly in a dream like state I've realised, I don't know if it's because I'm unaware of its passing or I do not wish for time to pass me by.
I hate her. Calling me 'babe' as though I'm close to her. Pretending that she gives a shit when she clearly doesn't. I hate her so much sometimes I wonder why she's even my leader.
And his skin condition deproved again. Isn't it enough that he's born with this illness? Does he have to suffer through his lifetime as well? The devil is really fucking cruel that's what.
I'm just so tired of all these shits. It's so funny though cause a day before I felt like I was on the top of the world. I felt like I could everything I wanted, that it was all just in the mind.
Today, I woke up and I wondered why. Today, I saw the sky and questioned if heaven exists. Today, I heard the flapping of wings and thought that if angels exist then the demon must surely be living in my head.
I know these thoughts are from the devil just like how I know that every impulse I have right now is wrong but that doesn't change a thing at all.
It doesn't matter to me.
I wish others could see that.
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