Do not let sin control the way you live. Do not give into sinful desires. Do not let any part of your body become an instrument to serve sin. Instead give yourselves completely to God for you were dead but now you have new life. So use your whole body as an instrument to do what is right for the glory of God.
- Romans 6:12-13
It's difficult sometimes to resist the urge to just throw all your books away, pack your bags and just leave this place. I imagine myself to be backpacking throughout the forest, scavenging for food resources and listening to Nature's sweetest melodies.
I haven't been seeing much Nature these days. When I visited my stray cats on Mon, most of them had forgotten about me (either that or they just didn't care) and that broke my heart.
Being forgotten is just such a scary feeling you know? I guess there exists an urge in me to want/desire to be remembered by others and it is this desire that drives my academic accomplishments and morality.
Which is totally off course from what I'm supposed to be doing. Thanks to Quiet Time (QT) today, I figured that out. Whatever is deemed good by Man may not be good in God's eyes. Man romanticises cutting/suicide/depression, but how are any of those diseases different from any addictions out there? What makes a drug addict different from a suicidal person? The boundaries are so thin but the social response to these two illnesses are just so different.
I guess humans are hypocrites after all. That's why we need God yeah?
Dear God, help me grow stronger in your Word each day and grow in intimacy with You. Aid me in acknowledging you as my Lord, and not only my Saviour, such that I will be able to live the life You want me to live and never look back to my past. Thank you Lord. In your name, Amen.
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