I hate me

I would give up anything in the world to have all my friends and family with me again.

I miss you so much that I can't even articulate just how much I miss you, and I am so sorry for everything that I've done but I can never take it back, you know? And I hate that so much of myself.

I can't stare at myself in the mirror and tell myself that I'm contented with who I am cause I'm not. I hate all that has happened. I want to change it all. I want to undo all my mistakes. I want to tell you more that I love you, and that I'm sorry, really sorry that it took me losing you to finally understand how important you were and still are to me.

Gosh. I fucking hate myself.