Psalm 62

Note: This post is going to be a Christian post. Do not read if uncomfortable. Consider yourself warned.

"Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.

 Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken." 

Psalm 62: 5-6

I just talked to one of my university friends yesterday and as I was talking to her, I just felt such a divine peace descending upon my heart, y'know? My friend, though, was troubled. She said she was happy for me since my faith had increased ever since I got admitted here, but she was disheartened because she has been feeling so distanced from God recently.

I didn't know how to comfort her but I made the same 3 second prayer I always do before I talk to someone about their problems.

"God, help me speak the right words they need to hear right now. In Jesus's name I pray, Amen!"

And then I spoke.

I honestly don't remember what we were speaking about but I know I said something like this that I just wanted to write it here to remind myself of God's goodness and grace:

"Honestly, I'm not a very devout Christian either. I doubt God all the time. I don't meant that I doubt His existence, cause I cannot fathom how everything I know or see right now come into being if not for a divine being up there in Heaven. I just don't think that God is for everyone sometimes. I don't think He's for me. I mean, what's the guarantee? I'm just a mere human to Him. I'm nothing. Other times, I just get really angry at God, you know? When I have all these stupid addictions (you know about my cutting addiction), I just can't help but question God why did He let all these happen to me? What's the purpose of it all?"

"I remember telling that to a leader, and I forgot who told me this but that person said, "If you accuse God and close your heart to Him, how do you expect Him to answer you? A relationship cannot work if you keep accusing the other party. You need to step down from that high pedestal you've placed yourself on, humble yourself and ask Him again."

I could see the tears swimming in her eyes and she finally spoke her real concerns. She was worried, she told me, she was concerned about Death. She was afraid her father would not be saved by Christ and they would be separated after Death.

It was a real concern of hers to have, of course. It's a concern I have sometimes, but M's testimony always touches me so I shared it with her. M's father had a heart attack. He almost died. 45% of his heart lost its function. He was admitted into the ICU.

But God saved his life.

And a year later, M accepted Christ into her life. She told me this, "When I heard that my father was going to make a complete recovery from his attack, I knew immediately that it had to be of God. I knew that God saved his life and I knew He saved him to let him get the chance to know God."

And it's amazing cause a revival is happening in her family now and I'm really excited for her. Well, my purpose for sharing this isn't just to glorify Christ but to show I guess other Christians out there who are concerned about their families or loved ones getting saved that God always has His timing.

God never fails to knock on the door of every heart.

So don't despair when you don't see results immediately. Everything is working out according to His plans. Everything is under control. Don't let your faith be shaken by the tough circumstances around you or any tribulations you might be undergoing right now.

God is your rock and your salvation. Set Him as your fortress, as the place you find rest from.

I ended my conversation with my university friend, telling her this,

"The reason why I'm growing in faith is because university is literally forcing me to behave this way. I have no background in literature. I've stopped studying it since 6 years ago! Now, I'm suddenly at university level and I am majoring in it? It sounds impossible, doesn't it? If you ask me how I am coping with all this, I'll tell you that I'm not. All I have right now, no matter how meager the success I have, they're all from God. I did nothing. I couldn't do anything. I don't know anything, and I think that's how I come to rely on His strength."

I know nothing, but He knows everything and that's all I need.

Leaving you Christians out there with a Bible verse:

"Trust in him at all times, you people;

pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge."

Psalm 62:8

Stay faith-filled throughout the week! J

P.S. the explosion of thoughts above was because I was doing my daily devotional on Psalm 62 and I felt God really speaking to me through this psalm so I wanted to record it on this blog [so that next time I can read it again] before I forget about it.